Take another shot of courage
Wonderin’ why the right words never come
You just get numb

I’ve always liked that part. I’ve never had a Tequila Sunrise, since it would certainly taste like tequila (aka turpentine)…

Things have been incredibly busy at work, and they are getting busier. We finally got the papers in for this conference, like three weeks after they were supposed to arrive, and now I have this huge box of manuscripts to go through. Hopefully I’ll have taken care of the preliminaries on all of them by this time next week. Ah, job security!

I just heard "18 and Life" on the radio. I meant to mention a few weeks ago that it was actually a clue on Jeopardy! I couldn’t believe my eyes. And nobody got it right, either. Though honestly, most of the contestants have been pretty sub-par lately.

Oh, and speaking of music, you can listen to my favorite radio station on the internet now. Enjoy!

O beautiful for patriot dream
That sees beyond the years
Thine alabaster cities gleam,
Undimmed by human tears!


So what about the use of the word "patriot" above implies lock-step agreement with one's president?

Just a thought...

It's five-thirty on my day off, and despite my plans to get a lot accomplished today I really didn't. I watched two episodes of my cool knitting show (which are all reruns at the moment), finished making a present for a lucky little girl with a big birthday coming in August, finally wrote an email I should've written weeks ago, and played more than a few games of this addictive little Japanese game. I don't even really understand the object--I have no idea how to get to Level 2, if it even exists--but I do know that this game is like crack. Ugh, there's laundry to do, I have to call my aunt, I promised I would make dinner, I wanted to make more pitas (that takes four hours, though, and it gets really hot in the kitchen)... Ah, at least I can get a few of these things accomplished.

GO CANES! Sorry, haven't posted since they won.

Mark's brother and his family came down last weekend. We had a really good time--the kid is really cute, and I can tell he's a good kid, but he is really in The Naughty Phase right now. Really, there was a minimum of brattiness--it's just that he doesn't know about delayed gratification yet. My sister-in-law is having another boy in October--she was not particularly comfortable being down here in the heat, but it didn't stop her from going to the outlet mall! So I guess it's all good.

Last night I made pitas from scratch. It was surprisingly easy, and much more convenient for sandwiches than homemade bread. And they taste much better and fresher than store-bought pitas. Though it did require an unbelievable TEN CUPS of flour! It wouldn't even all fit in the mixer bowl...

Wednesday was a fun, social day. I worked for two hours, then my office went to lunch to celebrate a birthday (two hours I get paid for!), then I had coffee with another local singer, then a dinner party with some friends who are headed to Switzerland until late July. We didn't get home until 1 AM! I needed the day off...

Okay, I must share this picture.



I just have no words. None.

Anyway, the big anticipated event here is that Mark's twin and his wife and son are coming down next Thursday for a long weekend. We haven't seen Laura and the baby (who's almost three, Jeez) in over two years--since the week of Helen's wedding, actually. It will be great to see them. I wonder, will spending time with Jack help hit the snooze on my biological clock, or turn up the volume? We shall see. He sure is a cute kid, though.

And in closing, I was inspired by Cathy's TMNT commercial to do some hunting of my own on YouTube. This really brings back the memories...



I always thought the father looked like a cross between Keith Hernandez and my third-grade teacher...

I officially apologize for accusing Cathy of being a Leo Lover. Mea maxima culpa!

Busy day today--I will update tomorrow.

So I was on NetFlix the other day, just poking around, when I saw something that stopped me cold: Cathy has apparently given Titanic FIVE stars. What the hell?! I mean, it has its good parts--Kate Winslet, special effects, the string quartet--but didn't we discuss this at length in 1998? Leonardo DiCaprio has gone on to make better films (e.g. Catch Me If You Can, The Aviator), but Titanic, to quote Helen, "just kind of sucks." Ugh. The worst dialogue. Anyway, I was pretty much shocked to see that. You have some 'splainin to do, young lady!

If there is an Aldi near you, you must try the 2004 Landshut Riesling. This wine is fabulous, and it's only $5 a bottle! And as far as Mark and I can tell, they only sell it at Aldi. We went in yesterday to buy a few bottles (among other things)--what a zoo.

In other news, Mark is finally fulfilling his life's dream of owning a barbecue grill. We'll need to order it from Sears (long story), but hopefully by this time next week we'll be eating marinated chicken breast and zucchini skewers. Yum...

I was reminded today of Jim Gaffigan's classic bit on Hot Pockets. Seriously, seriously funny.



Kinda tired. The humidity is getting to me. Yesterday I left work with what my coworkers believe was a migraine--my head didn't hurt, but my eyes were blurry and I felt really disconnected. I went home and slept for a few hours, waking up with an actual headache, but it wasn't really that bad...

Summer has finally come--for real. I mean, I've been wearing sandals several times a week since the second week of March, but today, today it's 92 degrees and humid. Ugghhhh... I better get used to this, as it will probably stay like this until late September. See, this is when we pay for the mild weather we get the rest of the year. One plus: the magnolias are starting to bloom, with buds the size of your fist. I picked one (well, "broke one off the branch" would better describe it) that hasn't quite opened yet this afternoon as I left work. It smells lovely and is just so beautiful, and promises to bloom even more humongous than it is already. I am a flower junkie.

You know what else I'm developing a yen for? Coffee. And we've got a French press, so it's wicked strong. Right now we've got this shade-grown stuff grown by parishioners of our cathedral's sister church in Nicaragua. (So it goes to a good cause!) I'm drinking two cups of that shit every morning four times a week. And I've entirely weaned myself off sweeteners in my coffee--just skim milk. I drink a lot of water in the afternoon to rehydrate a bit, but I've seen no ill effects in the singing. Problem is, the reason I started drinking it at all is that I've had SOOO much trouble getting my brain in gear in the morning. I mean, I somehow manage to roll out of bed, drive to work with very rare incident (more on that in a minute), and start my computer up okay, but as soon as I need start remembering which guy at Freescale Semiconductor called me yesterday things get fuzzy. And I pretty much need something to keep me going, and it's either caffeine or a Snickers bar (and I really shouldn't eat those at all). I try to eat small portions of low-sugar, higher-protein things periodically while I'm at work (string cheese, pumpkin seeds, the occasional sugar-free pudding cup!), but maybe I just need to eat a bigger breakfast than a 100-calorie fat-free sugar-free yogurt. A McGriddle would keep me going all morning, but those are like, heart attacks waiting to happen. Ah, well, I haven't figured out the whole diet thing yet...

So the "rare incident": there was a lot of congestion during my Wednesday commute, and I was rearended by a big BMW SUV. The driver (a girl in her mid-20s, I think) just wasn't paying attention, and wasn't going very fast when she hit me (I was stopped). There's very minor damage to the rear bumper (though it'll probably have to be replaced--that's the way bumpers usually are), and she had no damage at all. I'm having an appraisal on Tuesday, and hopefully it can be taken care of with relatively little inconvenience. It wasn't quite a positive way to start my morning, but the adrenaline actually helped me coast right over the morning blahs...

The doctor's appointment yesterday was helpful, I think. It was to follow up on the Lexapro, so I got to tell the doctor that it was NOT working. I've just been feeling yucky (see above), plus I haven't been doing so well with food (and I had been doing pretty excellent for a while--for me anyway). Now we're going to try Cymbalta, which is newer but I guess it affects more neurotransmitters. Plus it's supposed to help with muscle tension, which I have a lot of. I hope it goes better. It's a rare person who finds the right mood med on the first shot, so I'm not too worried about it. I start tomorrow, and look forward to better results.

Oh, last weekend! We had a great time in the mountains. My audition went really well--I got really positive and pretty useful feedback, and the guy might cast me in something at some point--and we visited with Mark's mother's cousin and his wife. They have a house on three acres of beautiful gardens and a mini-farm with all sorts of produce--six kinds of apples, plums, pears, blueberries, strawberries, asparagus, peas, beans, potatoes, even some corn. Plus there's a great view. It was very relaxing, and we each ate our weight in fruits and vegetables. And on Sunday we went to Spirits on the River for lunch (it was featured on one of Rachael Ray's travel shows). I had a delicious Gator Burrito, and Mark and I shared the incredible Fry Bread Sundae--ice cream and strawberries on a huge crispy doughnut-thing. Ohhhhhh, fry bread, I am your new bitch. (((salivates))) Is this why you've been driving all that way to Newfoundland, Helen? It's almost worth three days on a bus. Yeah, so basically we spent the whole time chasing chow. That and a yarn outlet (!!!) that I saw a billboard for on the way west, which for some reason no longer exists. Sad... :(


And before I sign off, the obligatory YouTube tidbit. This is one hard-working man. I especially appreciated his early '90s dance abilities...

Heh heh heh...

This is the coolest graffito ever.



Thank you for your comments, Erik! You're right about my judgment of the Wagner aria--I did screw up one of the rests, but it sounds pretty good so I'm not complaining too much... As for your comparison with pop singers: last year in Florida one of the other apprentices reminded us all that we could all have been successful pop singers, particularly since we're such good mimics, but that we chose this much more difficult route. The reason it seems like we have to "age" is because we do, literally. That and yes, there's a hell of a lot more work involved.

And speaking of singing, I had a pretty good lesson yesterday. My teacher has given me a new mantra: You have no technical problems except tension. And it's actually true. I immediately said, "Well, yeah, except for my breath control...", and she interrupted me to repeat the mantra. If I have trouble with my breath control, it's usually because I'm clenching with my neck. (I've had a particularly yucky time with my neck and back lately.) So the key for me is to somehow learn to relax my neck mid-phrase; I've learned how to relax my shoulders while I'm singing, but the neck is a different story. How did it get so bad? Who knows...

So I have an audition for a company in the western part of the state on Saturday. It's a general audition, but the artistic director heard me at the Met competition in January--hopefully he will have some vague memory of the experience. After speaking with my teacher and some other singer friends, I'm going to start presenting myself as a switch-hitter--that I'm definitely a big Puccini-Verdi-Wagner soprano, but that I'm quite comfortable singing character mezzo roles. And I am--and I can actually be heard over an orchestra singing them, actually. Plus they're almost always comedic, which is a blast after singing about living in a cave or being forced to have sex with the police chief to save my lover (like in my other rep). I do worry about being typecast as a mezzo, but at this point in my career I'm less concerned about that. The main thing is, I'm marketable in character roles, and I can make money doing it, and the size of my ass is not at all a problem (bonus!). So I'm going to start with my one halfway-mezzo aria tomorrow, and hopefully the audition will add up to something somewhere along the road. We're also going to be visiting with Mark's relatives who live on a blueberry farm--fun!

Wow. Here's more YouTube, a little music video called "Lazy Ramadi". It's hilarious, but it makes my heart hurt even more that there are these cute, creative young guys over there for no damn good reason. Oh, and some of Cathy's coworkers might appreciate it more than we do...

Go Canes! We went to the game last night--it was a great game despite the ridiculous refereeing (like calling penalties for every little thing Mike Commodore did, and completely missing all the times the Devils tripped and pushed people. I know it's the playoffs, but open your eyes. Jeez!). Now they'll be playing the Sabres in the Eastern Conference Finals. Mark has to decide where his loyalties lie...


We won't be going to any more games this season anyway; the seats we had last night are $100 each for this round, and even more if they make the Stanley Cup finals...


So here's the Butterfly scoop (by the way, the show has been moved to next spring so we can do it in a fantastic theater): I sing the big aria, it goes okay. I get a call the next day from the artistic director (my dear friend) and he asks me if I'm working the next day, a Tuesday. Apparently one of the people sitting in on the auditions (a board member, who I've sung with before, who is honestly no great shakes as a singer, but I suppose he's been around the block a bit) was concerned that my top (i.e. the one high note in the whole aria, I suppose) was spread and the lower notes were uneven, and they wanted to hear me again the next day. The high note was mediocre, as I recall. And I had specifically backed off on the lower parts of the aria--there's no consensus about how much chest voice Cio-Cio-San should use (not in that aria, or in any of Act I where she's supposed to be all geisha-y and fifteen and stuff), so I consciously chose to sing the low notes a bit more, um, gently. Apparently that was a bad idea. Anyway, I went in there the next day and sang the shit out of it, then sang a Verdi aria after that. My friend called to offer me the part an hour or two later. The thing is, even though I knew what my missteps were at the first audition--and, more importantly, knew EXACTLY how to fix them--I was still so terrified. With all the physical manifestations I've come to associate with performance anxiety. To me that says the Lexapro really isn't doing the job. I'm going back to the doctor next week, so maybe he can make another recommendation. And I'm sure therapy would probably help, but I'm just so loath to tell another complete stranger my life story from the beginning...

In happier news, Mark has made The World's Largest Lasagne. It is currently in the oven. Maybe I'll post a picture of it...

Since posting videos is all the rage, here is a funny one about MacGyver saving the cast of Lost.

I have more to say about Cio-Cio-San--the audition process was not so smooth as originally anticipated--but the kitchen is crying to be cleaned, so I'm thinking tomorrow.

It's finalized at last: I will be singing the lead in Madama Butterfly this fall. It's extremely exciting, but at the same time kind of scary. Long role, dramatically very demanding (yay, eighteen-year-old geisha mommy who kills herself), vocally challenging (but it's actually my fach--for once I'm actually singing something I'm supposed to be singing!), lots of historical comparisons to be made (eg. Callas, Tebaldi, Freni). I need to keep in mind that I'm twenty-nine, and cannot be expected to be as good as a forty-year-old native Italian superstar. I can only be my personal best. And I will do my damndest at that...

Hello, my name is Jennifer, and I am a slackass...

Great, now if somebody Googles the word "slackass", my blog will come up. Hell, I could use some readers, I suppose.

Speaking of Googling things, I've learned of a new fun Google game: if you search "[your name] needs", all sorts of cool stuff comes up. Most of mine concerned J.Lo and Jennifer Aniston. Though I suppose most of Helen's would concern old ladies on some heart transplant list (LOL!), and Cathy's would be from some lousy Wuthering Heights term paper available for purchase by desperate eleventh-graders. Give it a shot, though.

Feeling a bit sassy today, though I am also very tired. I didn't sleep well last night (how could I, kein boo? she snickered), and my neck is really killing me today. Part of the issue is that I've decided to try taking the originally-prescribed amount of metformin (rather than the half-dose I've been taking since October). The GYN told me I could go back on the full dose if/when I wanted, so I thought I'd give it a try. My weight loss has stalled, after all. I think it's going okay, but I have been crazy lethargic since Monday. Hitting the coffee and everything. Wow, I'm like, a normal person now.

And in Lexapro news...well, Mark seems to think it's made a difference, but I'm not sure yet. The (other) doctor has me on a full 10 mg now. I really don't feel any different. It may be making me break out, though, which I definitely don't like. I had to sing this incredibly difficult trio at a gala on Saturday night, and I was slightly less anxious than usual (i.e. no nausea, but I still couldn't eat and had to dose with Imodium beforehand), but I think that was mostly because two of my good friends were there, so I was distracted and in a supportive environment.

Oh, and in audition news, my big (albeit predetermined) audition is on Sunday. Several friends will be in town for the auditions as well, so it will be a sushi night culminating in sake back at the house. I don't recall liking sake (but plum wine...yummm), but our friends gave it to us as a wedding present, with the promise that we would enjoy it together, so down the hatch we will go. I'm trying not to be nervous about the audition--hell, it's basically been a done deal since November--but I still feel the need to prove to the dear AD that I can sing the hell out of it.

Oh, and in happy news, congrats to Stacey (if she's out there) for scoring the lead in AIDA in February! You go girl! :)

We do like her cookbook, but have also developed our own drinking games for her shows (e.g. do a shot every time she says something like "Yum-O!" or leaves a dollar tip)...

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Things here are okay. The birthday went pretty well, though I was up all night after eating goat curry mixed with ice cream cake. (Ugh.) I haven't been sleeping well in general--I wake up every night at about 4 AM, and there are nights I can't get back to sleep. If I do actually get back to sleep, I still wake up several more times before I'm actually supposed to. As it is, my sleep is very disrupted. I've tried taking several things, but nothing seems to keep me from waking up. I think exercising helps this--I just need to get motivated.

The state lottery starts tomorrow, after a lot of (mostly stupid) controversy, so Mark is down at the home paper covering in-town stuff. That means I'm on my own for the next two days. Among other things--continual laundry processing, cleaning the kitchen (which is Mark's job but he ran out of time), home pedicure--I have a two-DVD set of Die Walkuere that we got from NetFlix two weeks ago that I just haven't been able to bring myself to watch. Tonight's the night! Six o'clock will find me settling in with frozen pizza, snacks and tea to watch the marathon. I'm not quite sure how long it is--certainly over three hours. As if I have to be tortured to watch a Wagner opera...

In other news, we are almost definitely going up to DC on Easter/Anniversary weekend. More details to follow.

sI just realized how ungrateful I sounded in that last post. Um, hello, I get to perform, and people pay to see me... But I was just gettting really frustrated. The show actually went okay--whether that's because things actually did turn the corner, or because I just got really Zen about it, is anybody's guess. I did have a blast going out after the opening performance--gay bar, drag show, IHOP, coming home at three in the morning reeking of smoke. It was a nice way to blow off some steam.

Last week my beloved car broke down--it was a really minor issue (and luckily cheap to fix), but she was out of commission for three days so I had to take the bus home from work and depend on Mark for transportation. And now the driver's side door handle has completely broken off, so I have to open the door from the inside while sitting in the back seat. We're planning to visit my parents this weekend, partly to get the handle replaced and partly so I can use my mother's sewing machine. :) She is doing well, apparently, but I haven't seen her since the surgery so it will be good to go down there.

So things are slowing down a bit, but there are piles of laundry to do (this afternoon, promise!) and I'm working on some new music. We also just found out that Mark's brother and his wife are expecting their second baby in October, so I worked up this adorable hooded baby sweater. I wish I had thought to make it for Suli! Anyway, the craftiness rolls on. Mark has been thinking about getting into model ship building, in fact. Apparently I am rubbing off on him...

sSo the show goes up on Friday (with a high-school audience for tomorrow’s dress rehearsal), and I will be happy when it’s over. This production has been nothing but aggravation for me. To fill in: I’m understudying the female lead in this short opera, and I promised the heads of the company that I would sing in the chorus because the music’s crazy hard and I’d performed it in Florida last year. After the first chorus rehearsal I decided the music was just too high for me (it was a year ago, too, but I was getting paid to sing it-big difference), and I called the artistic director to let him know I couldn’t do it. Well, two chorus rehearsals later it became clear that they needed me, for the sake of the show. So I said I would do it, as long as I could take it easy with the high stuff during rehearsals. It has been a painful experience. Most of the chorus is new to the company (apparently new to opera as well) and they’re not the best musicians or too quick at learning music. Even as of last night the musical entrances are still not there. I feel like I’m carrying the whole thing--not leastly because everybody keeps telling me that I’m carrying the whole thing. It’s quite stressful.

Add to that the frustration of being an understudy. I’ve never actually done it before now, and I’m really just doing it to put on my resume and because I really like the show (my voice is a little big for it, though I could certainly perform it). So day in and day out, during musical and staging rehearsals, I’ve been on the sidelines, taking copious notes and doing what I can to help. Both of the leads are nice girls, but (a) I doubt they’ll be heard over the small orchestra in the small auditorium, and (b) they both have some technical problems. Oh, and the one girl still doesn’t know all her words, let alone what they actually mean. Yeah, that makes me feel great about being the understudy. Even when I knew I’d have almost no chance of singing the role, I made sure I knew all the music by the first rehearsal. This is just something you do as a professional. You really need to be off book by the first rehearsal-and if not, then certainly by the time you do any staging. How are you supposed to learn staging if you’re still carrying around your score and don’t know what you’re singing about?!

And I do know that I’m appreciated, it’s not that. At a marathon chorus rehearsal this Saturday, I got to sing the end of the opera-this cool, dramatic screaming part--about seven times for the chorus to learn their parts there. Everyone liked it-the director especially (who I know well from Figaro last fall). So at least I’m respected...

Anyway, I’m getting off my little soapbox. Friday night after opening the director and the costume designer and I are going out for a few drinks. I need it!

And the winner is (drumroll): Lexapro! The doctor prescribed the tiniest amount (half a pill a day), which is half the amount used in the studies I've read about. And people on the singer forum seem to think it's a good option as well. I have a followup in April to see how things are working. I hope this is the solution, but I know how hard it is to work out the meds...

My mother's birthday was yesterday--she's doing rather well, and even got to her church activities on Monday. No driving, of course, since she's on Oxycontin or something. Everybody break into my parents' house! You can even score some Flexeril! ;p

How many brand-name medications can I bring up in one post??