Tuesday, December 31

Party like it's 2049

Despite really wanting to go to that New Year's party, we just couldn't make it out tonight. Mark is still not feeling well, and my neck is bad enough that driving will be uncomfortable for a few more days. We had a really good time last year, and were sorry to miss it. :/ So we will be ringing in the new year with Aleve and NyQuil instead of champagne...  It's more like a regular Tuesday night around here, with the pleasant bonus of not having to get up early tomorrow. The house is a mess, and I think Mark wants to take the tree down tomorrow, so it will mainly be a day of cleaning and packing up. 

Resolutions?  Experience had proven that it's good to err on the conservative side here. :)  So while I'd like to say that 2014 will be the year I get back into a size 16 (a very doable goal--and it could well have happened this year if my hormones hadn't decided to go haywire, again...), I'm going to go with composting. I'd been doing it for a while when I got pregnant and lost the energy, and when Rosina was small I was a bit nuts about protecting her from mosquitos (not that they didn't munch on her anyway!).  Now she's even big enough to help!  I have to locate and clean the little indoor container, and may preemptively fill our now-empty outdoor container with some dead leaves since it should be in the 50s tomorrow. 

Still working on the hat, but the end is in sight. I sure hope it doesn't look dopey on me...

Monday, December 30

"You'll save much more on every brand..."

I suppose today was a fairly normal Monday, except that Mark was off work and I still don't have dance classes for the next two weeks. This meant a trip to the playground this afternoon, and also that I actually got to my Starbucks knitting group at a reasonable time for once. I started a new hat pattern, since the one I made last week really is too small. I just have this thing about hats needing to cover my ears... Anyway, it's in the ubiquitous green Lopi--on size 10s this time, but there's a large cable section that is killing my hands as much as those stranded mittens did. The Temperature Scarf is going well (I do wish I'd had some purple worsted weight, but it's not terrible, and it gives the scarf more of a rustic, Tom Baker-y feel that I kind of like), and at least it doesn't seem to be bothering my hands. Once this hat situation is addressed (I really do need a proper hat, after all), I really need to take a brief knitting break. Spinning should be okay, I think. 

I've also been having lots of trouble with my neck the last few days. I really need to get back into my neck and back exercises. It may prevent one night's bad sleep position from causing days of pain. I have a date with a percussion massager  in a few minutes...

Um, what else did I do today?  Mostly boring things--work, dishes. Rosina used the word "noisy" today, which was cute. Also, I went grocery shopping on my way home tonight; I wanted to make a few things for the party tomorrow night. Harris Teeter is having some stock-up sales that rival the ShopRite "can-can" days of yore... 

Sunday, December 29

Lazy Sunday, minus the cupcakes

Well, everything got done--and on time, even.  We all had a lovely Christmas.  Rosina was very excited about her tricycle (though it will be at least six months until she's tall enough to use it!), and has been having a lot of fun with her Ikea train set and child-size table and the tea set.  She is less interested in the doll I developed carpal tunnel from making, but I'm sure she'll warm up to it.  (If not, I will grumble, but I think my niece would love it.)  Mark picked up his sister from the airport while the roast was in the oven, and it was a great visit! (Evidence:  Rosina crying, "Lisa, Lisa..." when we dropped her off at the airport.  It may take a few days before she gets over it.)  We even got up to Hillsborough and its lovely yarn shop.  I have decided to take the plunge and make a Color Affection, despite the 1200 yards of garter stitch, so I picked up a skein of Malabrigo Sock (in either Azules or Aguas--I can't remember right now) to go with an Eggplant skein I already have and a skein of KnitPicks Bare Fingering Superwash that's been hanging around forever.  I will probably be working on another sweater sample next month (in worsted, thankfully), so I may not get to this for a bit.

And speaking of garter stitch, I am about to restart my Temperature Scarf--probably in garter stitch this time instead of seed stitch.  The yarn I initially picked for the purple stripe was more of a brownish-red than purple, and surprisingly, I don't have any worsted-weight purple wool!  I have purple fingering leftover from the sweater sample, but it's on a cone and I don't want to have to measure it out and double it.  There are going to be enough ends to sew in on this thing!  Anyway, I've decided to try some Cascade 128 Tweed I got from a destash.  Hopefully the sixty rows of aran/bulky will not stick out too badly in a 730-row scarf.  I did finish the mittens on size 8s, and they may even be a little bigger than I need after blocking (ugh, tight mittens are no fun).  I also dashed off a quick hat to replace my sadly lost Scotty hat, but I think it's too small and may need to frog it. :/

For whatever reason, we are all really run-down.  Mark has been sleeping for most of the afternoon, and I kind of went in and out earlier while waiting for Rosina to settle down for her nap.  I hope we're not getting sick!  We're going to a kid-friendly New Year's party on Tuesday, and I don't want to have to cancel! 

Monday, December 23

With the wassailing bowl we'll drink to thee

I'm actually drinking jasmine green tea, though wassail would be nice right now!  Don't know why that song popped into my head. I did have this crazy thought about caroling around the neighborhood, but it's going to be cold for the next few days. Also, I am feeling pretty gross. I am happy to be able to sleep in tomorrow!  As it is, I have more dishes to do, but my back is unhappy so I'm taking a tea break. 

Can I complain about something very minor, but just really arbitrary?  For three of the four Fox shows I watch, Hulu just deleted or Hulu-plussed a whole bunch of episodes that just last week were listed as being available for at least a month. I mean, what the hell?!  If I'd known they were gonna pull this shit, I'd have watched those five episodes of Bones last week. It was about a dozen episodes of three different shows!  All I know is, they'd best not touch my Glee.  It's bad enough that The Mindy Project is going on hiatus. 

In non-whiny news, I decided to start a second mitten on size 8 needles, and I like it a lot better. It will mean knitting three mittens instead of two, but they'll be a lot more comfortable!  I am on the thumb row now:


I have also started reading the penultimate Precious Ramotswe book. I am really going to miss these characters!  For the first time in my life, I almost feel compelled to write fanfic. Almost. Besides, Botswana is practically a character in these books, and having never been there, it'd be some pretty lame fanfic. Even in a world where Fifty Shades of Grey is a thing. Anyway, if you've never read anything by Alexander McCall-Smith, I recommend these!


Sunday, December 22

Domestic activities

Two loads of laundry (including diapers), present wrapping, minor straightening-up, dishes, rotisserie chicken enchiladas...and stock currently in the works out of the aforementioned chicken. Not bad for an eerily warm day (79--record high), most of which I spent feeling lightheaded and craving Almond Joys. Or better yet, the Almond Joy frozen custard they used to make at that stand in Wilmington.  With a side of Cool Ranch Doritos. Seasonale is proving to be more like "Annuale" than expected...

But look!  I finished Rosina's doll!

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(Forgive the wine rack in the background.) Hoping to blow a toddler mind. The pattern was technically supposed to be Cinderella--the Disney version, even, with a light blue dress and tiara--but since Rosina's only Disney exposure so far is The Rescuers (yet somehow she knows who Mickey Mouse is--Jungian collective unconscious?), I felt no need to be specific. At this point the doll could be an anachronistically-dressed sorority girl, for all she knows. Or Mommy on a performance day. Hmm, I like that one. Needs earrings, though. 

Saturday, December 21

Pleasantly surprised

Watching the rebroadcast of last week's (or two weeks ago's?) SNL: the members of One Direction can actually sing fairly well. Still don't what's up with their hair, but I suppose it's better than that too-long bang look that Justin Bieber used to do. Seriously, who thinks that looks good?  Cut your hair! And get off my lawn! ;)

Mark wants an Anti-Steam Ove Glove for Christmas, but apparently they are sold out everywhere...looks like he's getting a raincheck. That and a gift card for a beer store, some locally-made neem soap for his beard and the socks--which I finally freaking finished!  Huzzah!  I may need to take a knitting and crocheting break after I finish Rosina's doll. My wrists are not doing well with all this tight-gauge stuff, and crochet in general makes them hurt. My neglected drop spindle will see some action! :) Speaking of which, after seeing a few successful arm-knitted cowls, I gave it a try a few days ago. I plied together four strands of Burly Spun with that little drop spindle! The cowl came out well, but will have to wait until it's below 70 degrees for a test drive...

Forgot to mention this one among my holiday favorites: 




And that anything involving Alvin and The Chipmunks is 100% verboten, at any time of year. I hate The Chipmunks to an irrational degree. I don't even want to talk about it...


Friday, December 20

In which I list Christmas carols

My favorites to sing:
O Holy Night (because it's every classical singer's favorite.  Big sopranos, for the love of God, please do not sing this in E-flat just because you think you can. Unless you are Leontyne Price or Jessye Norman, nobody wants to hear that!)
O Little Town of Bethlehem
Deck the Halls
Silent Night (probably most singers' second choice)
Joy to the World
O Come Emmanuel 
Away In a Manger (with the good melody)
In the Bleak Midwinter (again, with the good melody)
Merry Christmas, Darling
Do You Hear What I Hear?

My favorites to listen to:
Anything by Elvis (except Here Comes Santa Claus, and I can almost like that)
Anything by Judy Garland
Any of the Alfred Burt carols, except Some Children See Him (awkward but well-meant racial stuff)
Sleigh Ride (the instrumental!)
Most Sinatra, Nat King Cole, Bing Crosby, Tony Bennett
I Heard the Bells On Christmas Day
Happy Christmas/War Is Over
Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer, Dean Martin version

Rosina's favorites:
Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer
Silent Night
Santa Claus Is Coming to Town

Frenemies:
Do They Know It's Christmas? (so corny and also problematic)
All I Want for Christmas Is You (hook-laden but overrated and WAY overplayed)
Santa Baby (though I kinda like the Macy Gray version)
This Christmas (as previously mentioned, only Donny Hathaway is allowed to sing this)
The Little Drummer Boy
Last Christmas
Dominic the Donkey
Easy on the Johnny Mathis, Ray Conniff Singers, Perry Como, Andy Williams...

DO NOT WANT:
Here Comes Santa Claus
The Most Wonderful Time of the Year
Anything Amy Grant, LeAnn Rimes, Debbie Gibson, etc.
OMG, Carol of the Fucking Bells
Happy Holidays
Up On the Housetop
Simply Havin' A Wonderful Christmastime  (I have abandoned giving Paul McCartney the benefit of the doubt)
How did I almost forget Silver Bells?!


Thursday, December 19

The Good, the Bad, and the Really Freaking Annoying

Radio silence!  Unfortunately, things did not go as smoothly as we thought they would with our little trip, and when we did finally get down time, I was trying to sleep, not type on a tiny touch-screen keyboard.  And we got bad news when we got home:  my grandmother felt really awful last Friday night--with all those nebulous signs of a woman having a heart attack--and because it was snowing, hard, my aunt called for an ambulance. There's no scarring or blockage, and the doctors are referring to it as a "minor cardiac event"; they are focusing their attention on a problem she's been having for a long time with horrible leg cramps.  Leg cramps are par for the course with diabetes, but all the tonic water she was drinking really hadn't been making a difference.  They think the problem is with one of her medications messing up her electrolytes, so they've taken that away in addition to prescribing sodium pills.  I spoke with her a few minutes ago, and she was hoping to go home today after a stress test, but they hadn't gotten back to her about the results yet so it will probably be tomorrow.  (She also mentioned that my father's cousin is currently in the same hospital after his blood pressure spiked--oh, and did I mention that another one of my cousins, this guy's sister, had a mini-stroke or aneurysm about a month ago?  What the hell is happening in my family?!)

Now, if you know me, you know that my grandmother and I are tight.  She did just turn eighty, and she has typical health problems for an octogenarian--she may be better than average, given that she never smoked and has had good carpenters' union insurance for more than fifty years--but she never really seemed "old" to me until a few years ago, when she did start to slow down a bit.  (She's never been a good driver, though.  Wow, seriously.)  Anyway, I just want to keep her around as long as possible, and obviously can't imagine a world in which she no longer exists... I have been very spoiled, and partially as a result of my parents having kids crazy early, there hasn't been a death in my immediate family since 1996 (my grandmother's mother, of a stroke at 88).  My grandfather turns 85 next month, and he hasn't been doing well for a while (small strokes, body that was worked too hard and no longer contains cartilage), but he's kind of stabilized.  I dunno.  Mark's parents, in addition to being quite a bit older (his mother is nine months younger than my grandmother), both died pretty young--and with teenagers living at home (his father died when he was 16, his mother when he was 22).  His grandparents have all been gone for thirty years as well.  I cannot imagine what it would be like to lose a parent very suddenly while in high school, but I know it has really shaped Mark.  Ugh, anyway, I'm getting all philosophical, and the holidays don't help, but I am definitely hoping to get up to New York as soon as the threat of snow is over.  I want Rosina to know her great-grandparents, since she's so lucky to have them.  I know it won't be the same as it was for me, when I stayed with my mother's grandmother for a few weeks every summer (she was in her mid-70s at the time!)--and thank goodness for modern technology, so we can record stories and songs and interactions so easily--but I really want her to remember them.  And not just because they have stories about the old country, and their wild immigrations, and about my father and his siblings growing up!

Blargh.  Anyway, Ocean City was kind of a bust.  My parents got stuck in traffic and didn't arrive until after ten o'clock Friday.  It rained all day Saturday, and we didn't even get to the damn Winterfest of Lights! (I know, my disappointment even surprises me.)  We did get some great pictures of the kids at a mall photo studio, but said mall was 45 minutes from the hotel.  Also, the proofs were supposed to take under an hour, but they took two-and-a-half hours.  My mother, SIL and I waited in the stupid studio for more than half that time.  When it was finally our turn to check the proofs, that and the printing took another hour.  We spent almost eight hours that day either on the road, in a mall waiting around, or at an Olive Garden across the parking lot from that mall.  Insanity.  So it was great to see my nieces and the rest of my family, but there was such wasted time...  Oh, also, we were on the first floor of the hotel, and unbeknownst to us the hotel had an indoor ice rink, ten feet from our door, that didn't close until ten.  There was drunk karaoke going on, and very young cheerleaders were in town for an event, and kids who were up WAY TOO LATE.  It was not a good scene.  Next year Mark and I would like to go to the mountains for Christmas.  Like, any mountains.

Speaking of insanity, I got to go to the post office today!  It was actually not that bad--they were very efficient at our large local office, and I should've known to just go there first instead of trying the little office I thought nobody knew existed (no parking there!).  Most of the holiday cards are mailed (at least mine are--Mark needs to get his act together), and while I ran out of Scotch tape AND packing tape today--and we're low on wrapping paper--there really isn't that much more to do, other than shop for food and clean.  (I did clean the grody master bath on Tuesday, TYVM.  I do need to scrub the floor, another day.)  Oh, and I haven't bought anything for Mark yet. O_o  I have about four inches left on the second damn sock, which is totally doable and they don't need to be blocked or anything, but there will be another gift.  He has been hinting hardcore about the new Anti-Steam Ove Glove (for barbecuing), and I was also thinking about a beermaking store gift certificate.  I haven't decided yet!

In other crafting news, I am quite close to finishing Rosina's doll--all that's left are the embellishments, really.  I don't know how long it's going to take to root the hair, though.  I may regret this... I also got through the first of a pair of stranded mittens (minus thumb) while on the trip.  I am half-wondering whether I ought to frog the whole thing back to the cuff and start on larger needles.  Honestly, I love stranded knitting, but I don't really do it enough to have consistent gauge from piece to piece--so maybe my second mitten would have different gauge from the first anyway!  If I remember, the pattern called for worsted-weight yarn and size 3 or 4 needles, but I'm using bulky yarn and size 7s (I have big hands, so resizing was in order anyway).  I may need to go up to size 8s.  Hell, I should just start the second mitten on 8s and see how it goes.  But first: this ridiculously boring sock.


Thursday, December 12

Not live-blogging Scandal, I promise...

Can I just say, though, TMI?! Blech.  Also,  I am still hoping John Barrowman will come back. :).  And some awesome money lines from Cyrus!

Another busy day, though it looks as if my work craziness will be back to its usual pace--maybe even a bit slow because of the holidays.  I'll be surprised if I don't get a call while we're gone, though!

OMG. If you haven't seen this, prepare to squee.

 

In Rosina news, she helped me make banana bread this afternoon: 


...and immediately started flipping out. When naptime calls, you'd best answer!

Looks like my family's not going to leave home until early evening tomorrow, but we're still aiming to arrive mid-afternoon. Indoor pool, cable, king-sized bed..I guess we don't need much. ;)

Knitting was productive today!  I think I've got a good start on some stranded mittens--for myself, TYVM--which will be great car knitting over the weekend. I made enough progress on Rosina's doll yesterday that it definitely won't be enough for the whole trip. Also managed to pick up free stuff while at Panera--thanks, ladies! :)

Back to the laundry!









Wednesday, December 11

Brief and solemn post

This will be quick, because I have stayed up way too late again.  I was just watching an episode of The Twilight Zone that I hadn't seen in a while--to the point that I'd forgotten the ending.  The lead actor looked really familiar, but he had age makeup on and I couldn't tell quite who it was:  Joseph Schildkraut!  I've seen The Life of Emile Zola, though not The Diary of Anne Frank (not sure I'd make it through!), but I always remember him from one of my favorite Christmas movies, The Shop Around the Corner.  Anyway, I ended up on Wikipedia, and saw I'd forgotten that Schildkraut was also in "Deaths-Head Revisited"--which they almost never show on TV.  (Also learned that this episode appeared between "It's A Good Life" and "Midnight Sun".  Wow.)  I remembered that Rod Serling's final statement was powerful, but I'd forgotten what he really said:

All the Dachaus must remain standing. The Dachaus, the Belsens, the Buchenwalds, the Auschwitzes – all of them. They must remain standing because they are a monument to a moment in time when some men decided to turn the Earth into a graveyard. Into it they shoveled all of their reason, their logic, their knowledge, but worst of all their conscience. And the moment we forget this, the moment we cease to be haunted by its remembrance, then we become the gravediggers. Something to dwell on and to remember, not only in the Twilight Zone but wherever men walk God's Earth.

Tuesday, December 10

O Tannenbaum

The tree is up, if not yet decorated. Rosina kind of lost her shit when she saw it. :)  Anyway, a bit of cleaning happened, but much more is needed--and the bare minimum will certainly be done by Friday morning. We have been trying to get a picture of Rosina for our holiday card, but the light just hasn't been right. We'll still have time when we get back, so I'm not too worried. 

Put in another fairly long morning with work. Hopefully this was the last one for a while. I've well more than made up for the two hours I'll miss on Friday--and I may get a call while I'm gone. I shouldn't complain--I certainly don't mind the money--but I will be pleased when all this reorganization is finished. 

Saw the cutest picture of Cathy's daughter today!  I love it when you can see the parents' features in their babies--especially when they look more like the one parent and then something from the other pops out. I may not want to put her down when I finally see her!  It's funny, when I held my friend Erica's baby a few weeks ago, it was lovely--but my ovaries were silent. I guess I really did only want one kid!  Haha! No, I guess I feel the same way about babies as I do about pets--I love them and they're awesome, but I see no need to have (another) one of my own. As if the one I had didn't keep me on my toes!

Tomorrow: ugh, get Mark's car inspected, go to the library (finished Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?; still can't shake that I've read it before), pick up a few things for the trip, assemble gift baskets and wrap presents, find a dinner recipe worthy of the feta in the fridge so I can use it before we go. I've finished the mittens, got done with the messy part of a large felting expedition, and started the ornament project. I am about ten rows from the heel on Mark's socks, but since they're a surprise, I will need something else to work on for the trip. The doll for Rosina is crocheted, as are the aforementioned ornaments, and I can't crochet at such a tight gauge for very long. I have a few things in mind, but I need to plan...

Monday, December 9

Whoops!

I missed a post yesterday!  Uh, maybe two tomorrow?  Or a picture AND a video??  Sorry, yesterday was a long day, and we were all in bed by about 9:30.  If only we'd gotten to sleep early...  Have I mentioned that we converted Rosina's crib to a toddler bed a few weeks ago?  If she weren't already such a champion sleeper, we would all be a wreck by now.  We seem to have figured out a naptime solution ("mommy/daddy chair", meaning one of us sits in her room for 10-15 minutes until she falls asleep--soon I think we can ease off and leave when she's almost asleep, and ratchet back from there), but she is definitely afraid to fall asleep in there at night.  The problem seems to be the darkness, and she has a projection nightlight and a fairly bright carry-along owl nightlight, but it's not quite enough.  She is currently falling asleep in our bed and being moved back to her bed, but obviously we don't want to make a habit of that.  We are working on several alternatives, such as keeping a low-wattage lamp on in her room all night, or on a timer--but we are indeed headed to Ocean City, Maryland, home of the infernal Winterfest of Lights and the world's crappiest photo-prop Santa, this weekend.  We were thinking of bringing an air mattress with us for her to sleep on, if she can handle it, but otherwise we have a king room so we can theoretically manage having her in bed with us.

In honor of the aforementioned shitty light show (which the preschoolers will definitely enjoy--and it's not bad, really, I just hate driving all that way largely for that one brief and anticlimactic event), here is some fantastic holiday cheer:




Ugh, nobody else should ATTEMPT this song.  You all suck in comparison to this.

We have been having bad weather here, as with most of the East Coast (though my years living in New York's Southern Tier have prepared me for this brand of crappy weather--cold, grey and rainy), but yesterday Amanda hosted a potluck for our KIP group.  Mass quantities were consumed.  And today Amanda loaned us her old fake tree--many thanks to her!  We'd been planning to buy one at Costco this year--$27.99 for a 7-8 foot North Carolina farm tree, can you beat that?!--but Mark went by yesterday afternoon and they were sold out!  He tried a few tree lots, and they all wanted $70 for a medium-sized tree. I know there's a blight this year, but come ON!  Not only that, but the lots are starting to run out of trees, too.  You'd think they'd have more than average at this point, since Thanksgiving was so late.  I have no idea.  Anyway, we're like, renting-to-own this tree, which is a spare.  Everything I've read about the real vs. fake debate falls in favor of real trees (particularly since North Carolina is the #2 tree-producing state--so it's buying local produce, basically!), but a five-year-old fake tree has basically amortized the carbon footprint created by importing it from China, hasn't it?  Reduce-reuse-recycle, yo.

Besides meeting Amanda this morning, we headed to Target for face products for me (damn you, Seasonale, I am having to use Persa Gel like a fifteen-year-old, and my skin is not nearly so resilient as it was back then) and some gift accessories.  Then I went back to work. Despite my remote desktop being down until mid-afternoon, I still managed to log four hours today.  I'm sleeping in tomorrow after my late night tonight, but hopefully things will run smoothly and I won't need to do another long shift.

I promised a picture.  Here's Rosina in the Trellis cardigan I finished last month:


It was definitely worth the hard work!  It's roomy enough that it may fit next fall (fingers crossed).  I loved working with this yarn (Schachenmayr Punto), and the pattern was easy to follow.  I did make the 12-month width with the 18-month length; the pattern seems to run roomy, though that may just be because it's meant to be an outer layer over heavier clothes than we wear down here.  I literally had just enough yarn left for the seams after making the sweater for Jean's little girl.  I decided to sew seams for everything to add structure (especially with a cotton-blend).  I thought I had screwed up big-time when I realized I'd knit the arm holes for the 18-month size and the arms for the 12-month size, but then I realized it was only a difference of a few rows.  The arm holes looked REALLY big, but I was able to set in the sleeves without too much problem.

I have one tiny eight-round thumb to knit, and I will be officially done with children's mittens for the year!  I am bringing the second of Mark's socks with me tonight--I'm in that Neverland of the foot, when you don't think you'll ever get to the heel.  I picked up some supplies today for a quick crocheted ornament, but I should be able to dash one off in about half an hour, so I'm not worried about the three or four I'd have to finish before Friday afternoon.



Saturday, December 7

Pie lovers...

Cute toddler moments:
1.  Pretending a printed tissue is a tablecloth, a cotton ball is a sandwich, a plastic cap is a "burger" and a bottle of eye drops is apple juice. 
2.  Passing by the appliance section at Costco, Rosina remarks that she sees an oven, then says, "You cook a pie in there."  Clearly she is her father's daughter when it comes to pie!

Not cute toddler moment: falling backwards off a table bench onto the concrete floor at the same Costco, right after I told her to sit down and stop squatting on the bench. Poor thing. She was unhappy but fine, and now I am even more paranoid about telling her to sit...

We were able to get a bunch of errands done today, though it was not a very pleasant experience. I made my dishes for a potluck tomorrow (tortellini pasta salad and a S'mores version of krispie treats), and managed to finish Charlotte's mittens, then we made our appearances at Mark's alumni event. Capped off the day with Rosina's first viewing of Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer. Fairly productive day!  

I am about halfway through Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? It's been a really long time since I've seen Blade Runner, but the book just seems really familiar. Have I read this before, and just don't remember?   

Friday, December 6

First-world problems

Scandal!  There is some serious messed-up-ness going on there.  If I can't handle watching CSI, you know I have to cover my eyes for some of this.  And James, oh James.

Half done with the first mitten of the larger pair of mittens.  Worked on Mark's sock last night at Panera.  It is a very tedious sock.

The high today is 79.  The high Sunday is 38.  I am not sure what to think about this.  All I know is that Rosina is fighting me about trying to leave the house.  Molars, I'm looking at you.  I only hope I can go to Trader Joe's tonight and it won't be a zoo.  In the meantime, I'm gonna open some windows.

In other TV news, I had been saving the last four episodes of Psych on Hulu so I could watch them over time.  I now only have one left.  Love that show!  ("Come on, son!")

Day job:  still doing tedious stuff.  Teutonic overlord has been temporarily replaced by Russian one.  Good times to be had.  Relearning the ins and outs of the system I left over two years ago.  Blech.  By the way, the Messiah gig did not work out--I know the woman doing it, and I think she just beat my response by a few minutes. :)

Rosina is still having trouble getting to sleep at night in her bed, rather than in ours.  I know the darkness is the main problem, but we still haven't hit on the right combination.

I forgot to put up a picture of her Halloween costume!  I was planning to dress her as Wednesday Addams because I'd found an all-black outfit, but it was in the high 70s that day so I improvised:




Thursday, December 5

"Shut up, Wesley!"

I know I posted a video yesterday, but I've watched this at least a dozen times by now.  Bonus points if you recognize individual episodes!



Braved Kohl's for some Christmas shopping for my nieces.  Charlotte is growing out of the toddler section! :/  She's just really tall.  At eleven months, Elizabeth probably outweighs Rosina by now, but she's so much shorter that they're not really wearing the same size quite yet.  It won't be long. (I did mention the ankle rolls, right? She rocks the baby chub!)  Anyway, it was only slightly stress-inducing--not bad considering it was lunchtime.  Rosina did not want to let go of this Superman action figure.  I wonder if they sell a non-Little People Superman toy that's not a choking hazard.  Hmm.

A singing colleague messaged me out of the blue to fill in for her at a Messiah performance tomorrow, but it's been about ten hours since I wrote her back and haven't heard anything else, so it's probably not happening. Too bad! It's not a bad way to make a few hundred bucks, and the singing is pretty damn easy for the Alto soloist.  Damn, I haven't had a paid gig in three years!  I need to email my teacher/s and try to get some lessons in during the winter.  It has been too long, and I know I'm rusty.  It's hard to tell if my higher notes are less pretty because my voice is lower or if I'm that out of practice.  Maybe a combination of the two!

Knit night tonight!  My mother confirmed that the girls need mittens, so I am busy with some raspberry Vanna's Choice.  (Turns out she didn't call me back because they ALL had a stomach bug.  Ugh.)  I will probably bring Mark's socks with me as well.  I did use an entire 50g for the first sock, but Patons Kroy Jacquards is really heavy fingering.  Last night I stayed up a bit late to watch the SNL holiday special (kind of a waste of time, since I can watch this anytime I want--beware, that's the uncensored version!), which gave me a chance to finish another project.  It may straddle the line between cute and creepy.  I hope the former wins out!


Wednesday, December 4

I forgot how skinny Robert Plant was...

I've been thinking about this song for a few days.  It's a shame that commercial radio, even classic rock radio, is so programmed that there's no room for deeper cuts anymore.  Led Zeppelin does a four-minute song like nobody else.  (See also the rest of Led Zeppelin III, "Night Flight", "Misty Mountain Hop"...)



I am really hoping that work settles down after today.  It has been kind of nuts.  If I were still doing 18 hours a week, it'd be keeping me out of trouble, but with my schedule as it is now, an hour-long last-minute project meant my plans to run errands this morning had to be canceled.  Rosina, meanwhile, has been watching way too much TV.  I'm in the room with her and interacting, but she's not yet task-oriented enough to sit and play on her own for two hours while I finish working!

I'm almost done with Mark's first Christmas sock--there have been a few false starts where I ripped out several inches because the pattern wasn't working with the striping, so they seem like they're taking forever... I guess I have three more weeks to finish them.  (Only three weeks until Christmas!  We still need to get a tree, and I've done almost no shopping, and I haven't even started the doll I'm making for Rosina.  Jeez...)

Tuesday, December 3

PTSD

I am jealous.  Indescribably jealous.

Jealous of all of my friends who had healthy, full-term babies this year.  I am really happy for them, but I am also very jealous.  I am jealous of the sleepless zombie nights, because my baby came home sleep-trained from the NICU schedule.  I was jealous of the third-trimester beached-whale phase, since I never got that far--even though I would've had to experience that phase during June and July in North Carolina.  I am super jealous of all the happy successful nursing going on.  I am so torn when I see it, because I am both so overjoyed that you can feed your sweet baby and so horribly disappointed that I could not.  (If anyone had bothered to tell me that women with PCOS can't normally breastfeed even in optimal conditions, it would have made me feel less like a failure.  Still pissed about that.)  I am very jealous of baby chub--though my niece's ankle rolls are kind of overtime!--because my baby was NEVER chubby.  It'll be whole milk until puberty here.  I worry that once puberty comes, she's going to go too far in the other direction because she's never been denied fat or sugar in her entire life.

I know I put up a good front, and I wouldn't want any of my friends to change a thing, but it still hurts.  When you only see your squirming baby long enough to say, "She's so tiny!" before she's whisked away.  When you can't hold your baby until she's a week old--and then you end up supporting all her weight in your wrists, because she only weighs two pounds.  When you see your baby in clothes for the first time, at about three weeks old, and you ask the nurse if they're doll clothes, because you never knew preemie-sized clothes existed.  When you don't kiss your baby until she's almost seven weeks old, and then only in secret, when nobody's watching, because you think the nurses will tell you not to.  When your supply drops to nothing because your baby is too small to nurse more than once a day (if that), despite round-the-clock pumping and power-pumping and Reglan that made you briefly suicidal and ugh, fenugreek.  When you don't get to see your baby's face without tubes until she's almost ready to come home.  When you spend $150 a month on nasty preemie formula instead of on loads of cheese to power the milk production machine.

Rosina is such a great kid.  She is sweet and helpful, can count to thirteen, knows most of her letters, loves to draw and paint and run around with sticks and dance and sing and fly airplanes.  I wish her molars would come in already, and that she were more interested in potty training, but that's typical toddler stuff.  I wish she would gain four pounds, but there's nothing I can do about that other than what we're already doing, and so long as she doesn't drop out of the third percentile for weight her pediatrician's okay with it.  We are indescribably happy with her outcomes, and so glad that she avoided any long-lasting health problems, but still, it hurts.

Anyway, I'm just venting, and I don't want this to be a pity party, but I need to acknowledge to myself that these feelings are so completely normal, considering what we've been through.  New mommies, recommence your breastfeeding!  I am rooting for you.

Monday, December 2

He sees you when you're sleeping

Sitting at the dining room table while Rosina eats ice cream and I enjoy some apple cider herbal tea (okay, but doesn't touch the real thing). I need to finish the dishes, but my bellydance class was tough tonight and I needed a break!  

Mark put up our meager array of lawn decorations yesterday, but while I was at class tonight he put out the yuppie window candelabras, so we are starting to look a bit festive here. We are going up to Maryland the weekend after next to spend the weekend with my parents and my brother's family (I know--I was so relieved to think that with my parents' move I'd never again experience the Ocean City Winterfest of Lights, and here we are again, for the fourth year in a row), so I need to get a bit of holiday shopping done this week. My mother better let me know soon whether to make mittens or hats for my nieces, or else that's not happening...I am a really fast knitter, but does she think I shoot them out of my ass or something? (Gross, sorry.) I think for my parents and brothers (and wives) I'm going to make some sugar scrub (also good for men with rough hands!), and Mark's been planning for years to make this salve his mother liked, so this may be the year. I have a tradition of giving my father something with sulfites for Christmas--we'll just have to see what  type of fancy olives Costco has this year!

I'm making some socks for Mark--fairly boring ribbed ones, since the yarn is slightly busy--but I haven't figured out what else to get him yet.  Hmm, maybe a gift certificate to the beermaking store?  He and Fritz haven't made beer in a really long time, but Fritz is finishing up his MBA now so they should have more time soon. 

Sunday, December 1

PerBloPoMo

Since I was a total slack (okay, semi-slack) and didn't post at all last month, I will endeavor to make this a daily thing this month. Traveling and holidays be damned, I have 3G and serious data to burn. Also, since asterisks are a total pain in the tuchus on an iPhone, I may find an alternate way to make bullet points. Or hell, let's explore the radical concept of paragraphs. 

So I said semi-slack before because I have had stuff going on. My trip to California was relentless--I literally returned to LAX 36 hours after I left--and the ramifications of said trip are still coming to fruition. Serious changes happening, which I can't even get much into in case it ends up in Google somewhere, but suffice to say my Teutonic overlord is replaced with a much friendlier, non-European one, and the entire structure of my segment of the organization will be completely organized.   Now I have to relearn a system I haven't looked at since my maternity leave's abrupt beginning--but at least it actually works, unlike what I've been struggling with for the last year. There will definitely be an adjustment period, but I think within the next three months we'll get everything figured out. 

Anyway, besides the work stuff, we were all sick for a week or two. Also, I decided to start watching Scandal (OMG!!!!) and caught up in less than two weeks, almost entirely during naptimes. So housework and hygiene may also have fallen to the wayside. LOL The holiday crafting is also in full swing--nearly done, now that I think about it. 

Getting late, more tomorrow. In the meantime, check out Rosina playing with my tea set--which, as I've just learned, first belonged to my great-aunt. (That makes it sound old, but she's only 25 years older than me--it's from the late '50s, I guess.)  Extra fun because it looks normal-sized when she uses it!